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BertholdtxReaderxLevi part13 - Confused

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"Stop acting, brat." Levi's eyes flashed. "But well, do what you want. I have news for you."

"Oh god..." I groaned. "Can't you stop torturing me?"

"Your beloved boyfriend's body was found this evening." Levi declared plainly.




"What are you...saying...." I managed to say, my throat suddenly dry. My legs went numb. Someone please stop the world...

"You heard me. That brat died."

I stared at him.

"Don't you dare to call him a brat!" I shouted and clenched my fist.

"Or else?" He raised his eyebrows. "I'm just telling you what happened. Nothing more, nothing less."

"Fucking liar!" I screamed. "I don't believe you!"

Levi pressed his lips together and turned away.

'It doesn't matter anyway. Calm down, will you? I've had enough of you. You can cry tomorrow as well, but for now, would you be a kind brat and...'

"Levi!" I exclaimed, interrupting him. My lips trembled.

He glared at me annoyed.

"We found him at the forest."

My eyes widened. Can it be...that he's not lying...?

"Please tell me it's not true..." I whispered.

We didn't break the eye contact for at least a minute. His expression didn't let me know anything.

"It is." He said silently.

My head ached. My vision became blurred, and I felt dizzy.

"Levi..." I breathed as I was falling into the darkness.




***




"W-well, I have something to tell you."
"I...[First name], I...always..."
"[First name], it was...all I could ever wish for..."
"That's right. I love you. I wanted to tell you for a long time, but it wasn't that easy. Sorry..."
"I promise we'll come back!"





"Please don't die..."
"I won't. I'll come back. I don't know how long it takes, but you have my word."



I winced and groaned.




"Anyway, about you, I always thought you were attracted to Captain Levi."
"You were always looking at him like he was your hero and so...You talked about him a lot."
"I haven't said but I'm so damn jealous...living with Levi of all people..."
"Do you love him too?"
"Hell, have you slept with him?"
"I am stupid for worrying about you constantly. I'm stupid for believing you. I'm so freaking stupid for thinking about you every single moment when you are having fun with another man. But most importantly, I'm stupid for loving you all this time."




"Dawn is coming. Goodbye, [First name]."




"Levi!" My eyes snapped open as I sat up in my bed.

The sudden action made me feel nauseous. I clutched my stomach. Damn hangover.

"You keep repeating my name like a fucking mantra."

I turned my head to the voice's direction, and saw a half-naked Levi doing push ups on his fists. I couldn't help but gaze at his muscular, perfect biceps.

He stopped when he noticed me staring and got up from the floor.

"Are you feeling better?"

"Not really." I whined. "I seriously feel like throwing up."

Levi let out an excruciating sight.

"Sometimes I think your life goal is to piss me off as much as possible."

He went to the bathroom and came back with a glass of water.

"Drink it."

I accepted it. I closed my eyes as I was drinking it. It was a real life-saver. I finished it quickly.

"Thank you." I gave him back the glass. "It helped."

He nodded and took it, then placed it on his desk.

"What time is it?" I asked, wiping my wet mouth.

"It's 3 o'clock." His eyes narrowed as he shot a glare at me. "In the morning."

I groaned loudly.

"It can't be!"

Levi shrugged.

"Looks like you're not a heavy sleeper." He said in a certain tone.

"What do you mean?" I asked, furrowing my eyebrows.

Levi didn't answer.

Then it hit me.

Heavy sleeper- sleepwalker. The cuts on my legs. The hickey. The bruises. The dream about Bertholdt...

Bertholdt...

"God..." I choked, then covered my mouth and got up quickly to rush to the bathroom.

There I fell on my knees and grasped onto the toilet seat. My stomach was twitching. I didn't know if I was going to throw up for real or not, but I felt sick as hell.

I heard Levi slowly following me.

"D-don't come in. Go away." I moaned helplessly.

I didn't want him to see me like that. He hates disgusting things, so...

I glanced back and saw him standing in the door, leaning against the frame.

"Are you ordering me around, [Last name]?"

"N-no, I'm just...I really don't feel well..." I whispered as hot tears filled my eyes. Bertholdt...

"You are not going to throw up, so stop forcing yourself." Levi said, then stepped behind me and yanked me to my feet by my arm.

"Hey!" I snapped. "Can't you stop being an emotionless, cold-hearted bastard for a moment?! I'm not asking you to be nice...I'm only asking you not to enjoy my pain so spectacularly!"

"I'm not enjoying it." Levi said plainly.

"Yeah, sorry, you're right! You're not enjoying anything since you don't feel anything at all!" I shouted.

He let go of my arm.

'I want to be alone.' I hissed and stormed out.

I looked around nervously. I'm sick of living here. I'm sick of Levi.

"You're still drunk, aren't you?" Levi asked.

He didn't come after me, he was still in the bathroom.

I growled and didn't answer. Instead, I went for the door with long strides and left.

The cool wind tangled my hair. I felt a bit better. If only Levi didn't check me for a few minutes...

I still can't believe him. I mustn't. If I believed, I'd go crazy.

But I have to go to that forest. I'll have to go there, because if Levi is right, there must be some clues left.

How...what could happen? Suicide?

My heart sunk.

Murder?

But who on Earth could kill him? Levi said he was found. So in theory it's not the Survey Corps. But then again, he could have made it up.

Reiner?...

I shook my head. No way. Maybe I really did go crazy...

But well...he is uncertain and could lose his mind easily...

No! Stop it, he's not dead!

I started to run towards the forest.

Levi must have noticed my absence by now. Then why didn't he go after me to catch me?

My blood froze. Or can it be that he was planning this? Can it be that he wants to get me there? That way he'll have all the evidence that proves I'm guilty and I'm connected to Bertholdt and Reiner.

Anyway, I don't have time for that- I thought as I kept on running forward. It's already decided. I'm not coming back to Levi. I'll find Bertholdt whatever it takes.

I could already see the forest. Come on, there's not much left...

"Okay, I think I've let you have fun long enough." I heard a calm voice.

Guess who?

"Damn you!" I shouted and tried the impossible: I speeded up to leave him behind. In the meantime, my mind raced. How could his voice be so even, he was running, right?! He didn't even have to yell! He must be right behind me! And he was so silent, I couldn't hear him coming...
I gasped. I shouldn't have shout back anything, my lungs were burning like hell. Fuck, it it goes on like this, he'll...

"Got you." He stated as he appeared next to me. With a sudden movement, he kicked my feet out from under me. I didn't let myself panic, I rolled away after I landed, then quickly jumped to my feet. Although I was dazzled a bit I still leaned to continue running.

But before I could take a step, he grabbed me by my collar.

"That's enough for now. I'll take it as a result of your drunkenness."

"Let me go!" I screamed, trying to punch him.

"May I ask where?" He questioned as he blocked my blows easily with one hand.

"I want to find Bertholdt!" I cried out in despair. I grit my teeth. I lost again. I'm so useless...I'll be questioned by Commander Erwin, I'll be summoned to the court...

"How?'

"I...I..."

"Don't go."

I looked in his eyes. Why did he say that? I searched for answers, but I didn't find anything.

"Why?" I whispered.

"Because you don't want to. Whatever happened between you and that Fubar brat, you're better off without him. In many ways."

I had the feeling that he knew Bertholdt's true identity very well.

"And what about you?" I asked quietly. "Do you want me to stay?"

He raised his eyebrows.

"Why would I?"

I didn't say anything, I was still waiting for his answer.

"If you go any further than that, I'll have to consider you as Braun and Fubar's ally." Levi said finally.

"So?"

"I think you're better than that, that's it!" He raised his voice annoyed.

"Do you love me?" I asked him slightly sarcastically.

He scowled.

"No. I don't love you." He said it like even the idea was impossible. "Why, do you love me?" He snorted.

I would have loved to shot back a firm 'no'. But as I opened my mouth to say it, something didn't let me.

"I..." I looked at him with pained face. His eyes widened. "...I..."

I struggled to say something, but I couldn't bring myself to it.

He stopped grabbing my collar and pulled back his hand.

I buried my head in my hands.

"He's not dead. I lied."

My eyes widened as much as possible. My mind was blown.

"W-what?" I stuttered, looking up. But deep inside I had already known. And I wasn't furious or anything- I only felt great relief.

"He's not dead." He repeated turning away his head.

"Why did you say it then?" I demanded, but somehow I didn't sound as rigid as I wanted.

"Because I was so fucking fed up with you.' Levi growled. 'I wanted to settle it down at last. To let the cat out of the bag. And well, I managed."

I thew my head back and let out a long sigh.

"Uh. Okay. I guess, I'm arrested or something." I smiled and raised my hands. I won't say anything about the boys. I'd rather kill myself. Bertholdt is alive, and it's all that matters.

"What the actual fuck are you doing?" He glared at me. "Put down your hands."

"What?!" I mumbled surprised.

'I don't want to know anything.'

My jaw dropped. He...what...why...I don't get it at all...

I just couldn't stop myself and hugged him tightly. His body stiffened.

"What...brat, let go of me!" I heard his irritated voice.

After all, Levi isn't a cold-hearted bastard. At least, I wanted to believe it. And about Bertholdt...I guess Levi's right. I have to let him go.

Because he let me go as well...

He's alright and most likely doesn't give a single thought about me.

"I don't want to be a brat." I whispered, and held onto him even more.

He covered his mouth to hide his smirk.

"And I thought you couldn't be more of a fool. What do you want to be then?"

"A woman." I breathed. I could feel that I slightly gave him goose bumps. I closed my eyes for a second before I said: "Make me a woman."

Levi took my chin and made me look at him.

"What are you babbling about?"

"I'm not drunk. I wasn't lying before. I want you." I said under my breath.

He was staring at me for an eternity. Then he slowly wrapped his hands around my waist.

"If that's the case, you'll have to submit yourself to me."
I hurried crazily so here you are, next chapteer:D I hope it's not rushed, don't go easy on me!:D
As for the next part, dirty stuff is comiing.:33


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